Mad + dissappointed + sad

F your life kao kao..

Wo hui lai le~

Ok, sorry for being MIA for a while.
(following paragraphes is not in any way related to each other)

My life has been so mundane that if it's written into a book, u will fall asleep reading the first paragraph. Heck, i might even fall asleep writing it.

I think i am insomniac. Not that i can't sleep though. It just blardy pisses me off that i blardy wake up at blardy 8am every blardy Saturday. Then i moped aroud the house doing blardy nothing and watching blardy silly cartoons while everyone is still in blardy Slumberland. But then again, coem tot hink of it, i kinda enjoy the Madagascar cartoons they show. King Julian I adore you!

I am addicted to Archie! Been reading the comic religiously for the past 2 weeks. I need a proper book sigh.

I watched Nanny McPhee and The Big Bang! I love British accent. Nope I still don't like Harry Potter. I was anticipating the appearance of Ewan Mcgregor. Turned out, he appeared for a brief 3 minutes right before the end. Damn kill joy la. Next up Repo Man. Jude Law (!!!) British accent. ^^

Is Monday gonna end soon? I'm suffocating here~

Ok, gonna go MIA for another 2 months.
See you in August~

8th March 2010

i.have.lost.the.interested.to.blog.and.write.

how ar?

Back to work

So...
I'm back to where i started..
back to working life...
back to sitting in front of the PC..
back to eating tapau food for the next "dunnno how many days"..
back to good old JT..
back to the companion of my soulmates..
back to doing everything on my own..
back to being a grown up after being pampered at home...
back to hectic life..


Had loads of fun during my long holiday at home..
met up with old friends, didnt manage to meet up with some, catching up with relatives, gambling with kids, not having to worry about anything.. sigh...

"I've forgotten how to work" told the roomate last night..


**abrubt ending**

Fuh~

Fuh~ Another week passed!
*a great week nevertheless*

Fuh~ What a weekend!
*yup, a superb and very rewarding one*

Fuh~ Great companions!
*need I say more? yeap, Angela, we had fun without you! kidding la, don't cry ar*

Fuh~ Great Food!
*missing home cooked food now*

Fuh~ my legs~ tired from walking!
*Me think the distance me walk from Monday to Friday is equivalent to me Sunday*

Fuh~ Tired!
*literally dragged myself outta bed this morning*

Fuh~ Air tickets bloody expensive!
*Tony Fernandes, I thought I like you, but I thought wrong hmph*

Fuh~ Leave approved!

*Off on NYE* ^^

December

I love love love love love December. Who doesn't? How can you not love December when everywhere you turn to, there are beautiful decoration, huge xmas trees, cute angels, candies and not to mention SALE and traffic jams and rounding the carpark for at least 1 hour before you spotted a happy couple/ family of four coming out from the lift and you follow them closely and paying close attention to the direction that they are heading to ala mentally sot serial killer!?


okay, i got too carried away...

Anyway, yeah I love Christmas!
*been going around taking pictures of xmas decos in every shopping mall*


I love the way the bells jingle, I love Christmas carols, I love fake snow, I love the reds and greens of Christmas, christmas parties though the ones I go to are pretty decent gathering, Christmas productions, candy canes, buying presents, receiving presents :)





I love Christmas more than CNY. CNY songs sound the same, tong tong chiang. Don't get me wrong, I love CNY to a certain extent- get to go home, collecting angpows, meet people you have not met for the last 365 days, pig out on good food, junk food, bakua, soft drinks and by the 3rd day of CNY you realize your jeans has become tighter.. oh well, must have gotten one size smaller in the wash.. nom nom nom and you continue pigging out on Shandy and bakua and later on mahjong or black jack at your grandpa's house.. Yeah, that's roughly what happens to me every year.. But sometimes CNY can be oh so boring. You go to one house, you drink, you eat and you go to another house and you drink and you eat.. and trust me, every house has the same thing. One thing for sure that i love about CNY, going home and forgetting about my life in PJ :)

anyway~~ I still love Christmas ^^
and Public holidays that falls on weekday. ^^






MERRY XMAS !!

Not happy

but you made my day :) Thank you~

Today

Today~ I am not in a very good mood
Today~ I am not feeling very well
Today~ I tried to fill my tyre air but after after 5 minutes squattign under the hot sun, I didnt see any difference before and after FML
Today~ I want to be more productive but I find myself Facebooking and blogging
Today~ I am thinking of you, thinking of what you are doing
Today~ I anticipate the future
Today~ I realized that I'm beginning to miss you, after so many years
Today~ I feel like shit~

10 random things about me today

1. My eyes are closing... and it is only 4 pm! 2 more hours to go.. sometimes i feel bad for leaving the office when all my colleagues are still working...

2. Been working fairly hard for the past few days (harder than the previous weeks :P) and am longing to see some result sigh~ give me la.. little bit also can~

3. Freaking hot outside and i don't think my aircond is working hard enough to provide me cool air.

4. I'm beginning to feel hungry despite having zhap fan for lunch just now. Damn long didnt eat zhap fan la.. Been spending quite a lot on food lately, should start eating something economical. Hmm.. what to have for dinner?

5. Ahbi iz here! Went to Port Klang with Ahbui and Ahkak to get him, got lost on the way back and paid huge ass amount for toll. Then miraculously found our way to Sunway Pyramid ^^

6. I think my eyesight is getting worse. staring at the computer for the whole day, sheesh.. dahla my eyesight bad enough already.

7. I'm starting to drink plain milk ^^ because i found out Dutch lady is not really that bad after all.

9. My ass is flat from sitting on the chair for the entire day and my shoulder are stiff. i need a massage...

10. i miss people from home

I. NEED. TO. BE. MORE. INTELLIGENT.

Not that i'm very intelligent in the first place la..

But seriously,
I need a good book to read. I want to go to Borders or MPH and sit there and read for the whole day and not be bothered by the world collapsing around me.
Should have brought some books with me when I came back here.


See..i'm so un-intelligent that i don't know what else to write pfftt!

Of Leprad prinds....

Ms Singapore pleads for forgiveness for credit card fraud conviction?

Ooh..so she she has been buying leprad preens, zepra prinds in Orchard Road while wearing bikinis that BOOMS using illegal card...



In an interview, she said that she started stealing pokemon cards when she was younger because it gave her a sense of satisfaction.
Just hope she doesn't steal the crown la..

updates: she gives up her crown.. phew..

A letter to Him

Dear God,

Today was a horrible day for me. Didn't You get my message this morning? Please tell me all these are for my own good. Assure me that everything will be okay, that I can pull through it no matter what. At least, lend me a little strength, a little determination, a little courage, a little wisdom, until I found mine...

Awaiting your reply.


Love,
Mable

....

I. am. tired. of. this.

I duno la.. i really don't know.. one day i like what i'm doing, the next day my face is as black as the charcoal. Wassup with me?

Last night

Mum called last night, asked me why didn't I call home for more than 1 week.


I told her I was busy with work, that's bullshit.. If I have the time to hunt 2 malls for a dress, I have the time to call her. It's just that every single time I call, or mum calls, the topic will always revert to me being a teacher, signing for posting. I was told last night, many people at home were asking me about my "teaching career".


I am tired of this already. Again and again I was asked, and again and again I gave the same answer, yet, 5 seconds later, I will still be bombarded with the same question. Is it me, or there is some kind of communication breakdown here?


I told the friend the other day, one reason why I want to be away from home is to be away from all those pressure.



All I want is a little encouragement, words of support, a little pat saying "Well done girl!"
It's never good enough, isn't it? No matter what I do. I will only be good enough when I do it their way...


Are they disappointing me or the other way around, me disappointing them?



**********

A free bird leaps on the back of the wind
and floats downstream till the current ends
and dips his wing in the orange suns rays and dares to claim the sky.

But a bird that stalks down his narrow cage
can seldom see through his bars of rage
his wings are clipped and his feet are tied so he opens his throat to sing.

The caged bird sings with a fearful trill
of things unknown but longed for still
and his tune is heard on the distant hill
for the caged bird sings of freedom.

The free bird thinks of another breeze
and the trade winds soft through the sighing trees
and the fat worms waiting on a dawn-bright lawn and he names the sky his own.

But a caged bird stands on the grave of dreams
his shadow shouts on a nightmare scream
his wings are clipped and his feet are tied so he opens his throat to sing.

The caged bird sings with a fearful trill
of things unknown but longed for still
and his tune is heard on the distant hill
for the caged bird sings of freedom.

-Maya Angelou (I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings)


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Me Time

I will not get hurt... because I'm too selfish!

Another phase of my life

Started work yesterday. It's not that bad but I don't think it is that good either.
Didn't do much yesterday and today.. still on training..


Gosh.. 10.30pm and I'm sleepy.
See, that's the problem. When I work, I sleep damn early!

**yawns**

Goodnite!

will update you with the story of my life some other day la...

Leaving or going?

Flying off at 2pm later to a place-where-who-knows-what-will-happen.
So is it just going or is it leaving? Oliver said flip a coin to decide. If only life's decision is simple as that...

Don't know whether I'll be back.
Don't know what's gonna happen.
Don't know what to say.
Don't know what to do.
Don't know a lot of things actually.

Leave it to God?

Behold the birds of heaven, that they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns, and your Heavenly Father feedeth them. Are not ye of much more value than they? (Matthew 6:26)

Maybe

Bumped into V yesterday and had a long chat over 2 glasses of ice lemon tea. It's been such a long time since we last talked. Apparently, many things had happened over the past few months/ years. He is getting busier with business and work and I still hanging around aimlessly...
Lighhearted jokes turned to something more serious. And I poured everything out to him, almost bursting into tears (passerbys might think he just dumped me or something) and ask for his opinion (though he is not exactly the person to give good advice -__-)

Me: It's not as simple and easy as you think.
Him: Well, maybe it is not as difficult as you think. All it takes is hard work and determination. Surely you can survive rite?

Yeah.. he is not the first person that told me that. Angela said everything started out to be difficult at first. All it takes is a little hard work. You reap what you sow. Where there is a will, there is a way.

My mind flashed back to another friend M who once asked me "Lei em ngai tak geh, hai mai?"
losely translated into "you can't suffer/ live in difficult time/ work hard can you?"

I'm a beembow..

wanted to blog about this sometime ago, but I forgot..

Last few weeks, we were doing some briefing for students who are leaving..
Being a newbie, I just sat in and watched and learn while my manager did the briefing..

What happened was this:

Manager: Ok, you must not bring bla bla bla bla yada yada... if you bring must declare ok..
Student: Ok.
Manager: are you bringin bla bla bla yada yada?
Student: Erm.. don't think so, Can just buy it there, rite?
Manager: yeah.. what about bla bla bla bla?
Student: Maybe..
Manager: Remember to bring mask ar..

At this point, I was thinkin "yeah it's winter in Australia now. The air must be really cold and dry.. you need really hydrating mask, maybe some really good lotion and moisturiser too.. aooh and lip balm :) "

Manager: make sure you have the mask once you check in at the airport, preferably wear it in the plane and avoid over crowded place.. You know la.. H1N1 cases now very serious..
Student: Ok.

ME: =___= mask itu rupa rupanya..

It's all bout the mar-nay

Sigh~
Why is it when the older we get, the value of money too seems to be getting less and less?
When I was little (which was once upon a time far far away) having more than 2 bucks in my pockets makes me feel like a millionaire. Do you have any idea how much is 2 bucks back then??! Omaigoda! I felt like a millionaire man!
I used to korek money from my piggy bank and spent my money on junk food at the school canteen coz mum doesn't really allow junk food at home.. (ahh~ and that's when I ballooned thanks to all the junkfood)
Now, even a few hundreds seem like a little to me.. easily spent on unseen things and poof like smoke it's gone..

*** Everything is money but money is not everything***


Suffering from constipation now------> blogging constipation, no mood and no inspiration to blog la