Me vs Me

Since I've embarassed myself with shameless pictures in the previous post, and since you've puked so many times you are probably sleeping beside the toilet bowl, I guess a few more pictures won't harm anyone...

Below as you can see is a photo of mine which I've been distributing throughout Malaysia. Okay la, not throughout Malaysia but throughout Selangor and Sarawak.

I don't think it is very nice but it is a hell lot better than all those passport pictures I took since I was 12. For those who have seen (ehem) my IC, Matric card, driving license, I am sure you agree with me right? I was told that my IC picture look as though I am burning (i oso donno why) and that my driving license look as though I am pissed at the world or something. And my matric card, aiyo don't say la.. my baju senget sebelah the photographer oso never tell. Damn selekeh.
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And this my darlings, is an unseen, unknown photo.. until now.

Different onot?

Notes of the day

Received these:

"Real failure is when you stop trying."
"You are not finished if you lose, you are finished if you quit."

Thank you.....

Baby's back!

My baby is back with me! And he is well and ready to go!
Damn happy okay.
My baby recovered after almost 1 month :)
Spent Rm75, lotsa smile and some eyelash batting to get him going.

Finally, I can have my baby with me!!!!

Being apart for 1 month is torturing. Been spending time with others for that 1 month and now it is time to rekindle our relationship.
Missed him so much I am going to spend my every second with him.

I am bloggin with him, chatting with him, emailing with him, surfing porn (!!!) with him.

Oh.. what's that?
Who's my baby?
Oh.. his name is ACER ASPIRE :D

Leng Zhai mou?

Yesterday

Was talking to my mum last nite while she was preparing dinner.
Told her that I am waiting for a reply from a company in Bandar Utama that offers 3k.
Then she said "if u can get it, go work there la."

^^ :D :) :> yeehaa yipee..

But that is only my mum's opinion, have yet to ask my dad.

Now, the only thing to do is pray that they will call me, pray that I get the job and pray that dad lets me go back to PJ.

Was offered a freaking 1200 from a company in kuching. Wahlieu, damn high man the pay WTF! Monday to Frday office hour, Saturday half day, Sunday off, might hve rooster to jaga at night because classes are held at night. Gosh.. seems like a lot of work for just 1200
I was told that I have to be jack of all trades if i'm employed. Sigh.. so guys worth it or not?

Donno whether I should reject it and wait for another opportunity.

Maybe I'v been living in Kl for so long that I tend to look down on Kuching in term of salary and opportunities.
I can't seem to stop myself from comparing the jobs here with the ones in Pj and K
which is driving me crazy!

So you don't forget how I look like.

WARNING:THIS POST IS FULL WITH LOW QUALITY, SHAMELESS, SELF TAKEN POTRAIT WITH BLAND BACKGROUND. VIEWING IT MAY CAUSE SEVERE DISGUST AND NAUSEA.

Don't say I didn't warn you....

Was waiting for THE time and so I ma camwhore in the car lo..

Like my darlings used to say.."mempelacurkan diri kepada kamera."

Do u feel like puking now?

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Taking camwhoring to a whole new level.
Was trying out webcam with Angel and Juayn last night.

Nah, one last photo to make u puke last nite's dinner out...

Ask me!

Ask me!

Ask why I show one side of my face more?

Whining time

Life is pretty dull and boring since I'm back. Nothing happenin going on. No one to chat to, no one to go yamcha with. Nothing to see, nothing to do. Yeah.. I don't have much friends in Kuching, can finish counting with just 1 hand ok.. damn, my life is that sad. I just don't feel like going out, just don't feel like meeting people. yeah... you are right Angela, this is my depression time.

Everything seems to remind me of something or someone.
Maybe I need to adapt back to this little old place.. 2 months... max!

I have to months to think and decide thoroughly....

Think BoBo.. think...

The day

I cried when Angel hug me goodbye before she left for work.
I cried when I had breakfast with Juayn and Shukim at Coffee Bean.
I cried when I read Angel's letter.
I cried when I was at Gemini coz Juaynna made me cry.
I cried when Joan said "Ni bu khe yi wang chi wo, ze tau ma?"
I cried when XiaoFatt hugged me goodbye.
I cried when I received a sms from Tracy.
I cried all the way to LCCT.
Then Sukur cheered me up a little when he accompanied me. Then voila, I cried again when I was about to head to the departure hall.

Been home for 2 days now and all I'm feeling is numbness.

No smile, no laughter.. is this really necessary? After all, it is partly my choice to come back here.

Still scouting for jobs. I am hoping to get full time and part time jobs. Maybe full time day job and something part time at nite or weekend just to keep myself busy...

Today's interview left me hopeless.
"Why do you apply for this post?"
"You are a trained teacher right?"
"Did you apply to be a tutor or lecturer anywhere else?"

But like Juayn said... "remember law of attraction?"
So, I'm going to attract what I want with my mind~~~~~

Yeah.. you are right. I need time. I cannot overpush myself.

Back from Sabah

5 days, 4 flights, 3 cities and towns, 4 hotels, 1 mouthwatering home cooked meal, lot's of good (and bad) food, 1 luggage of dirty clothes, and 1 pack of dried shrimp and lot's of unforgettable memories.

Yeah..Just came back from Sabah with friends.

Ate together, slept together, mocking each other, sweated together, froze together, you name it, we did it hahaha

Alone

For the first time after so many years..

I felt alone...

please.. don't forsake me...

A weekend at home

Made tortoise jelly wtf!

Stir it in cold water, looks very unappetizing lor..

cook it until it boils

I poured it into little moulds ala konyakku jelly :D

Taa-daa! Now can eat till you lausai d!

I did :P

Now, something totally unrelated...

Cute huh? No, it is not mine. the first word that came out from my mouth was Sock-su!

But his name is Jasper.

Happy Mama's Day!

With some random guy dressed as Er-Lang Shen during Wesak.

Nah, Chen Chen's shake his booty to end this post.

Hamsap

There's a frog in my bathroom!



Damn hamsap spy on people bathing -__-

Last nite:

Bro: Che, do you know what is a panda's dream?
Me: dunno
Bro: Panda dreams of taking a colour picture, coz he is black and white!
Both: AHAHAHAHAHA....

Tell me

Tell me how to decide when you weren't given a choice in the first place...
Tell me what to do when everything has been planned and decided for you...
Tell me what to say when everything I said will not be heard...
Tell me.. because I wasn't given a choice...

I trusted, I believed,
I'm stupid for trusting and believing.

Hot hot hot!

You suck, do you know that? No I guess you don't coz you are too dumb to even know what is suck!Idiot! Don't hurt the people I love when I'm not around! All you know is to eat and shit! What else do you know?? Nothing! You can't even open your mouth to save your life for goodness sake! Big talk but emptiness inside! Don't blame people for things that happened! You are not as noble as you thought DAMNIT! If you said it then admit it! And don't go around telling people that you are the oh-i'm-so-kesian-i'm-the-victim!!! Because in my eyes.. you are PATHETIC!
Faakeet!
We are human too!!
Don't pretend to be nice and all smiley face in front of me when behind me you are always causing sorrow in people's life!
All you know is to complain! That's all! Farker! No wonder no one respect you, Coz you know why? YOU ARE NOT WORTH THE RESPECT!
It's useless to treat you so nicely!
Fuck off!!

I know you won't read this.. you are too stupid and ignorant to understand what I'm saying anyway!


fuh.. lega..feel much better now. sorry guys for the rude words :S

When the boss isn't around

we camwhored in the shop!
saw this really cute furry halo on the head of a really cute furry teddy bear so we.....

Juayn


ShuKim

"Aunty at pasar who sells chicken", said Juaynna

*I was dressed in a simple spaghetti strap and home shorts when I was asked to stay and work, so u can't blame me :(

When we got bored playing with the furry halo, we camwhore somemore

Nah.. Aunty again...

Going back to Kuching for a few days so I figured I should bring back some of my clothes and stuffs.

Gonna bring back BoBo Mochacinno Christensen Liew Mei Ying and Dora.

Decided to pack Dora into the luggage and hand held BoBo because Angela said,

" walking around with a teddy bear looks better than walking around with a Doraemon".

Yeah I guess.. It's embarassing enough to walk around with a bear, what more to say a Doraemon..

but I still love the Doraemon nonetheless!!!! ***defensively in case the people who gave me the Doraemon read this :P **

Well, he looks happy to be in there

'till next time...

Stranded

Nowhere to go
Nothing to do
No one to hold on to

Move.. to where?
Back to my comfort zone or start anew?

Can't make up my mind
Can't make a decision
Can't seem to do anything right

I'm tired...
tired of thinking
tired of trying
tired of comparing
tired of the green eye in me

Scared? Nervous? Worried?
The thought of it gives me nausea.
Ughh..

Yeah.. I'm stranded..
Yeah...I'm whining...
Yeah... no big deal...
Yeah... many are going through this stage now...
Yeah.. this is my territory so I get to do what I like here.