Being a woman

I want to curl up in a fetal position on my bed, under the blanket.
I want to take out my uterus and scream at it so it will behave and not cause me so much pain.
I want to sit on the toilet bowl till everything in me came out.
I want to drink hot stuff and put something hot on my tummy.
I want to soak in a tub of hot water.
I want my chouchou to be with me.

Stupid me drank kat zai shuen mui 1 hour before she came!

I cried because it hurts.
I cried because I hurt you.
I cried because of what I said.
I cried because of what you said.
I cried because my heart can't take it.

"A broken vase can never be as strong as it used to be"

Staying and Leaving

Saw this on an essay writing contest form by MPH (or is it Borders?)

"..like the moment when the door closes, and one person is left standing inside, while on the other side the other person walks away... quietly..."

Earth Hour 2009

Yupe gonna switch off the lights and electricity and sit in the darkness thinking about my future.

Descendants of the Eunuch Admiral

Finally, it's over...


The staging of Descendants of the Eunuch Admiral was a success! Some said it was disturbing, some said it was hilarious while some just don't get it.


All the hard work and effort we put in were paid when we heard "Well done, good job!" from the audience and from Dr. Susan herself.


It is a tiring course.. but it is also the only course where we really worked as a team to stage this play. And no doubt, it is the only fun course (minus the stress of coz) where i get to know people from other faculties.

Yeah.. I'm gonna miss them..

miss Yingo's directing

miss Bu's diva-ish look

miss Angela grabing her not-there *****

miss Siti's ke-lo-ser and ke-lo-ser.

miss Kevin's "... we have to show our baobei because u see..."

miss Izzat's sexy dance moves

miss ahBui cuteness during the storm

miss xiao Fatt's "Come father, let's do it!"

miss Budhie running around in boxer

miss Farah's narrating

miss Shijie and her sarong selling

miss wyna's ever so powerful "ARGGGHHHH!!!"

miss running to the changing room while stripping off my costume

miss the crew..

miss talking about penises so freely.. :P

yeah.. i will miss them..




The Descendants of the Eunuch Admiral

So, I did it..

So I did it....
I submitted my forms and applied to become a teacher..
It took me quite some time to finally decide to do this.
No doubt, part of me wants to be a teacher, good pay, lotsa holidays... but i guess one reason is my parents.. disappointing them will break not only their hearts but mine too..


Since young, whenever i have to fill details in borang or write a "My Ambition" essay, the word "teacher" never appeared in it. To a 12 year old me, being a teacher means I have to succumb to school hours (waking up at the ungodly hours and start work before the sun is even out?!) and the un-glam world of education.
Now, almost a quarter of a century old, I still think it is torturing to wake up before the sun rises and yes i still think a a teacher profession is very the un-glamorous -__-

Since young, people has been telling me "Aiya ah-girl, become teacher veli good, salali veli high, many holiday, buy car buy house veli cip" And i will feign interest and give them the u-huh, smile, nods that they want to see..

What happened? What happened to the girl who didn't want to become a teacher? What happened to the girl who wanted to achieve more? I can't find her anymore...
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Life has been very hectic and busy lately.. which in a way is good i would say. Well, no time for me to sit down, think and cry over how depressed i am, how confused i am...
It is already the mid of march.. the Ides of March.. hmm bad vibes? Julius Caesar was assasinated on this day.. supposed it will be an unlucky day?

Fairy Tales characters on the loose!!!

As you've probably already read from Angela's blog, there is this kingdom which belongs to Mr. Lim where all the fairy tales characters live..

Anyway... this is a continuation of the story..
First of all, the tigress DID NOT eat everyone in the kingdom.. she decided she is better off as vegetarian. That means bye bye to bunny burger, roasted deer meat, and of course bebola daging! In short, they all became good friends and live happily ever after.

Secondly, the fairy tales characters turned out to be avid camwhores the instant the King left the court..

Thirdly, did I mentioned that they are 23 years old? Sigh....


See.. told ya they are good freinds..
the bunny, eldest piggy, wild boar, youngest piggy and the tigress

the young lord with his three beautiful princesses and an equally beautiful piggy :P

the 3 lil pigs and the big bad wolf!!

Some hungry people who wanted pork chops for dinner.

little pink riding hood with the forest's animals

Walter and Higgle the two piggies.

the King and his subjects :)

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And lastly....

Your's truly.... Niggle th youngest pig!